I am Rose and this is my soapbox

Wednesday, 3 June 2009

I'm having a breakdown

Ah, I've missed you blog!
I've wanted to post something forever but I just didn't have time.
The past few weeks have been amazing, I'm gonna blog about it someday because it was breathtaking. But I had to come back to the real unwanted world again.
But today I really felt like I should blog about certain things.
The thing is that today I went to the countryside with school with the whole sheeps class thing. It was fun at first, running the sheeps was something amusing to me. But then it all got horrible. You know, I didn't use to worry about sheeps because I thought "they don't get killed, they just get the wool out of them so it's not bad. I guess I was being an ignorant. Truth is that no matter what, they will always be treated like shit. I looked at them in the eyes and my heart broke in a million pieces. Fucking stupid men laugh at those creatures because they're always scared. But they have a million reasons to be scared. I wanted to pet one and it just started walking backwards and I was like "Hey sheepie, I'm not going to hurt you", but still she was scared shitless and it made me feel horrible. I wish I could go now and release them all, even though they would die, but still. kjbfas I really don't want to eat meat again, nor wear any sort of woollen clothes.
I could go on and on talking about this, but I'll cry and I already broke down today so I don't want to cry anymore.
I'm under so much pressure right now. I just want to put myself to sleep for a while, for real.
Must - stay - calm.

Peace out.