I'm having a breakdown

Ah, I've missed you blog!
I've wanted to post something forever but I just didn't have time.
The past few weeks have been amazing, I'm gonna blog about it someday because it was breathtaking. But I had to come back to the real unwanted world again.
But today I really felt like I should blog about certain things.
The thing is that today I went to the countryside with school with the whole sheeps class thing. It was fun at first, running the sheeps was something amusing to me. But then it all got horrible. You know, I didn't use to worry about sheeps because I thought "they don't get killed, they just get the wool out of them so it's not bad. I guess I was being an ignorant. Truth is that no matter what, they will always be treated like shit. I looked at them in the eyes and my heart broke in a million pieces. Fucking stupid men laugh at those creatures because they're always scared. But they have a million reasons to be scared. I wanted to pet one and it just started walking backwards and I was like "Hey sheepie, I'm not going to hurt you", but still she was scared shitless and it made me feel horrible. I wish I could go now and release them all, even though they would die, but still. kjbfas I really don't want to eat meat again, nor wear any sort of woollen clothes.
HELP FUCKING STOP ANIMAL CRUELTY.
I could go on and on talking about this, but I'll cry and I already broke down today so I don't want to cry anymore.
I'm under so much pressure right now. I just want to put myself to sleep for a while, for real.
Must - stay - calm.

Peace out.

So I guess I was chosen "nicest person" in my class... again, except maybe better, or not. I don't know whether I should be happy or not. I'm flattered, but not too pleased.
As for senior trip? Probably back to plan A, which is good.
I need friday afternoon right now.
I haven't packed a crap yet, but I am soooo excited.
Crappy day ahead, goodnight.
-R

My mind is a safe.

I've been passing all the exams with very nice grades lately. I'm getting the highest ones actually, I'm pretty happy about it.
But for some reason I feel extremely tired. My head hurts, I feel like I'm about to explode. So, dear Mr Ryan Ross, I know how you feel.
I can't wait for this week to be over.
I'll be the happiest person on earth on friday, thank you.


Woah, you're tanned boys. Looking good.

A perfect pane of glass

You don't get it, do you? You're the moon.
You're MY MOON.

You're one of the best things I have in life.

So, yeah, about yesterday. I only went to school for one hour to have the economy exam (I got a 99% btw, so congratulate me) and then I went to hospital and got my hands x rayed. So apparently it wasn't sprained after all, but I did get a hematoma, which basically means that one of my veins/arteries kind of ermm, broke? and all the blood flooded my finger, and that's why it hurt so much. Nothing some painkillers can't fix.
So now it's going back to its natural colour an size, it still hurts a bit though.
The day was nice (Keltie obviously made it) and so ... yeah.
Now I'm tired, I only have two tests coming up this week so I'm pretty relaxed.
I like this, I'm going to sleep in tomorrow.
Have a good night.

-R

Oh - my - Jon. I can't belive this, one of my biggest heroes twittered me. The best part about it is that it totally caught me off guard. I mean, I didn't even write to her or anything, I just mentioned her and she twittered me.
So when I saw it, I was like "What? Twitter, stop making no sense"
I'm stunned.

I love you, Keltie Colleen, you'll always be one of my favourite people in the world. YOU DESERVE THE STARS.

ps. notice her twitter to coun above mine ;)